At Most Times, the Good in You

This here is a letter, it's nothing more or less. I urge you to focus on a few paragraphs per day, maybe it would be better if you would read this letter over the course of three or four days, because I have a great feeling that you may disregard some important things, but you do as you wish. If ever you find something unreasonably said, then bear with it and continue. As well as if you have questions read this again, and still if you have questions, read it once more. This is a process, and not me trying to ignore. Inshallah may this provide some clarity. Also you should know that I tried to base what I've written on not making much assumptions, so forgive me if my assumptions are out of place.

At most times, I remember the good in you.

Sometimes you find no reply to you on facebook for a few different reasons. I have set parameters on what we can and can not talk about, as far as concern goes, I did not need to respond to you whenever you wanted to chat or make conversation. Another reason was that unless whatever we talked about resulted in righteous benefit, bear on, I had no interest in talking about it. Also I kept sensing through out the time that has passed that you wanted us to return to being in a relationship, or taking what ever relationship you thought we were about to develop even further. What you need to believe is that I do not want me and you to be in a relationship of any sort, not even friends. That is a big reason why there are only three subjects that were open for talks and discussion between you and I. Although that does not mean I do not care about your well being, in fact that is the only reason why I ever responded to you.

Being anything more than a person who can give you light advice to you is something I do not want to do. Because, obviously the next step is being friends and going there is just like waiting at a bus station to hop on and go down the road even further, probably off a cliff. I do not believe in friendship between men and women, although anything before that is possible, because we naturally co-exist.

I also have a firm belief, and I could be wrong, that if we start a relationship it will become disastrous, something that brings failure more than it brings happiness. I have come to understand where you want to take this to, quickly and ultimately to marriage. And I do not like to be with you for two connected reasons. One is because socially, I do not want to be with you, and you very well know why. The other reason is that I do not trust you, not even a bit. 

There are two things that contribute to me not trusting you, one is, again, you know why, and the other is that I developed problems trusting people. And I do not want to live with the torture of not trusting you, nor, I believe, that I'll be successful at re-trusting you. I unexpectedly still hurt. 

If we are meant to actually be together, which is not for you to decide, nor shall I accept it if it comes by your intended actions, then be it so. I'll explain how this could happen later on, and what I mean by not accepting anything that comes as a result of your intended actions is: anything that you do in an effort to combine us in a relationship.  Meaning anything like contacting me through the telephone, on the web in its different forms, in person, or through persons, basically any effort of trying to  transmit any sort of message through any form of communication to me or to others about me. This also includes a wider scope of actions, like contemplation, conspiracy, pleading, and intimidation.

In other words, you do not have the right to try and direct, force, manipulate, or play me into a relationship, which would then mean that in some way shape or form deceit has been incorporated into the situation, and I loathe that.

Because to me, it seems that your actions are hiding something, whether you intentionally know it or you're doing it for the sake of the situation being "not-crazy". And I don't know if whatever you were hiding was of bad or good nature, for as far as I'm concerned, if it's hidden it's dishonest. It's as if you're an Afghani in an American airport, you pose a threat, even though you could be completely innocent. Either way, I would hate to mistreat you.

I am not a game, puzzle, or anything of the such, for you to partake in an activity. Respect me. 

I will in no way accept anything that comes from you, I will straight on reject it. Move it away I do not want it. Yet what I will accept is what comes from Allah, if he so sees fit that we become together, therefore, through his wisdom and will, making it secure that we engage in a relationship. You can put your hopes in this, but you should not, you should just accept if it is, and accept if it is not. And this could be understood on more than one level, please, do not be immature or closed-minded about it.

You will be better off putting you hopes in something that is willingly under your control, for example, university, yourself, and your family. The better the grade you get, the happier you give yourself the chance to become, and that's the truth, because you will inshallah grant yourself several different ways of bringing forth happiness and satisfaction.

My advise to you is, regardless of your conflicts, is to be a bit more optimistic, in your everyday actions, striving a bit more to fix some of the problems in your life. Happiness, no matter how watered down the word is, is guaranteed, if you truly approach it from where it welcomes you. This statement just now is the truth. It is the ultimate truth. Meaning there is nothing that is truer than what it is stating: true happiness, bliss, is guaranteed, as a way of life, if you choose to approach it from where it calls on you. And I can show you proof beyond any reasonable doubt, if you would like so, some other time maybe.

It's okay to have a positive outlook everyday, and maybe you already do. There are many ways to be happy, but most of them are a delusion, which basically means that happiness is achieved but it always comes attached with something that is not right, problematic, unnatural, and we tend to ignore that part. It's no joke, almost every way of life you have seen is developed by people, and not only that, some people even promote it as a way of life. For example, singers and rappers often say that getting rich and living a life of 'partying' carelessly is the way happiness. Also, Buddhists say that being kind to the environment around you is the way to happiness, and you know there's more to life than just that. These lifestyles are delusional, unjust and incomplete, these lifestyles are created by people, for people.

So is it not the truth when you come to learn that the only way for true happiness is to follow the way of life that has been given to people, by their creator?

Or will you let Shaitan make you feel that this does not move you? This is too good to be true? Make you forget this instantly? Or dirstract you? Will you let Shaitan make you feel that you're too weak to take this in? That this is too large of a concept? That this is so old, so passed that?  Will you let Shaitan make you feel that you're in no mood for this? Will you let him make you feel that you're chest is closing on itself? Will you let Shaitain make you feel fear inside? Or will you allow yourself to be stronger just a bit? Then will you allow Shaitan to make you abandon what you read? 

If you're inclined to not give up say, A3ootho Billah Min Alshaitan Al Rajeem, and say it again anyway.

There is only one savior for you, and whether or not I'm ever going to be related to you salvation, it is not me. What you need to do is be fair and good to yourself, everyone of us need that, it's our right upon ourselves. You also need to be fair and good to your god, Allah, even though he doesn't need us, it's his right upon us.

And about what you asked, the (some text missing), it doesn't necessarily have to be your goal, it's just a path you must uptake, which is a path that leads to fixing your problem. In other words, it is important that you set your intention onto a path that, in it of itself is righteous and clean, leading to a serene outcome. I imagine it might be a bit difficult to absorb or understand, but if it ever comes down to it, it has to be done, and may Allah guide you onto the right path. It's okay, put your trust in Allah, this problem is inshallah not definitive of you future.

I fear at the end of this letter you disregard or over see some or most of the meanings within these sentences and reply with something that just puts us back in this horrible circle. If you are tired, I understand that this is a tiresome situation, and it's burdening me, no matter what happens.

Every word in this letter is equal to the other, you giving more meaning to one and neglecting another is misunderstanding the message and thus understanding it how you want it to be understood. There's nothing extra-special about this letter, except Allah of course, this is just me telling you, while answering your questions, that your path to success in this life, and inshallah in the next, is a bit over due, and you beyond any doubt deserve to be happy. 

This is not about me, nor is it about me and you. It's exclusively about you. Leave whatever darkness you're in, don't shut your eyes, and don't shut your brain, and don't negate, meaning don't render this ineffective or deny the existence the what ever truth you see. If you're dead only this will be alive in you: the need to triumph against all that is bad, mind-numbing, delusional, horrible, obscene, malicious, offensive, abusive, hostile, ruthless, rotten, hateful, harsh, inconsiderate, fake, spiteful, evil, heartless, unbelievable, a place that stinks of falseness, a place where people are spit on, a place where people chase their tails, a place where all is lost, a place where you fall, a place where you don't want to be.

The answer to this is in hope, and verily hope still exists. You are unimaginably strong, not by coincidence, but by luck and fortune, because this is how you were created. 

Proof: You have the ability to oversee all this. And, in the least, you know where about you need to be. You can check for yourself, instantly. Can you sense the strength that Allah has given you? Inshallah you will, and even if you sensed it a little bit, It may look small but isn't it bright?

What might cause some confusion is mixing up strength with the drive within to change, although I believe you still got a sense the strength inside. If you find it hard to drive your self to take a couple of big steps, then take a few small steps, it's all the same. It's the first step that changes the scene, the perspective, the structure, and no matter how small it is.

If anything is written up there is right, it's from Allah, and I apologize for anything written up there that is wrong.

From Youtube: "A Video BLOG From Shaitan To You"

Here is the video link.

The main point talks about how Satan decieves a person into believing that he or she does not worship anything other than Allah. The problem is the person is unknowingly worshiping many things. Such as: Him or herself, pride, money, appearances, sex, and other things of this or a similar category. 

The questions arise, what is "worship" and how does a person worship something? Whether knowingly or not knowlingly. How would answers to these questions be of credibility and of value? What is Islam's perspective on this?

The pre-installed Macbook dictionary defines worship as:

Part of the questions is answered here, the islamic part I believe is not answered, yet inshallah. But if you brake down the definition this is what it looks like:

1) "The feeling or expression"

2) "of reverence and adoration"

3) "for a deity."

The first part refers to a notion that's initiated internally within someone in a form of an external projection. This can be based on a reaction or instinct. A pure reaction occurs when someone is influenced by something in their environment, whereas a pure instinct-action generates from an untainted inborn drive, like the will to eat. The bottom line is that a 'feeling or expression' in relevance to the definition of 'worship' is when some sort of (spiritual and/or physical) action is transmitted from (point A) the worshiper to (point B) the worshiped.

The second part basically means 'of deep respect and deep love' according to the same dictionary used before.

Deep respect and deep love can be felt or expressed towards an object(whether living or inanimate) as well as a concept. For example, someone may love and respect an object like a car. That person loves the car becuase it generates positive feelings. The person may like the way it looks, performs, and how it presents itself and the person along so accordingly. Something like that beloved car is driven for happiness and serenity and is kept safe from threats, obstacles, and misusage.

A person may also love and respect a concept deeply, such as towards a code of conduct. Many people abide by a certain conduct. People who have been successful in sustaining that way of life have invested much determination and a lot of personal effort. Those people at heart retain deep love and deep respect for the way they lead their lives. Such a code of conduct is there to ultimately acheive happiness and serenity and is protected from threats, deterrents, and abuse.

The break down so far of the definition of the word 'worship' is thus a spiritual and/or physical action of deep respect and deep love is transmited in order to yeild happiness and serenety whether immediately or collectively. That's a pretty long yet logical sentence. Though the embodying idea is incomplete, so where is the action of deep respect and deep love being transmited to?

The third part of the definition answers the previous question with "for a diety".

Therefore it is clear, there is a relationship between the worshiper (point A) and the worshiped (point B). That relationship is somewhat like a business transaction, where the worshiper offers a commodity of deep respect and deep love to the worshiped in exchange for some happiness and serenity.

All of the previous examinations conclude complete definition of the word 'worship', due to the added help of breaking down its original definition which was mainly this:

"The feeling or expression of reverence and adoration for a deity"

The evolved definition of the word 'worship' has become, long yet simple enough, this:

1) When an instinct or a reaction

2) in the form of a spiritual and/or physical action

3) of deep respect and deep love

4) is transmited from a worshiper

5) to a worshiped diety

6) in exchange for happiness and serenity

7) whether immediately or collectively.

In the begining of this article, it was stated that a person is decieved by Satan to knowingly or unknowingly worship other things besides Allah. "Satan's deception" and "knowingly worshiping other than Allah" are not really the point of interest here but what is interesting is whether a person is capable of unknowingly worshiping other things besides Allah like one's self, pride, money, appearances, sex, and other things of this or a similar category.

So in order to put the previous statement to a test one more tiny definition break down of the word 'diety' is necessary to achieve a valid test-like template or format. Withal, the second part of the definition points out a 'diety' is a 'divine status, quality, or nature', and according to the same dictionary divine is:

Focusing more on the second part, 'divine' is something that is excellent and delightful in status, quality or nature. Whence, A diety is something of a nature that is extremely good and brings great pleasure. Thanks to Allah, this eventual break down fits pretty well with the evolved definition of the word 'worship' specifically in part 5 and part 6. Thereby if we allow the definition to evolve even more it would flow like so:

The word 'worship' is an act. It is the product of an instinct or a reaction because it is either motivated by an inborn drive or by a factor of an environment. Whichever way it was produced, it is nothing less than an emotion of deep respect and deep love. This intense emotion can be expressed internally via a spiritual action or expressed externally via a physical action. This unique action is presented to nothing except something of a nature that is extremely good and brings great pleasure.

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